A wallowing song is a song I put on when I am feeling depressed or overwhelmed and I would like to wallow in it a little bit before I go out into the world as if nothing has happened. This particular song featured heavily in the Year of Wallowing, right after the divorce. Because music is a powerful emotional trigger, every time I hear it I am taken back to that year.
The rules of the challenge dictated that once a song was selected for me, I was stuck with it for the entire challenge. So every time this song came up on my rotation, I tried to dance but ended up doing more wallowing. I think I described the quality of my dance as "trying not to cry" every time.
This week, though, I think I finally shed the last edges of wallowing. The day I danced this song, I was rushed, not thinking much, and I put it on and just started moving. About halfway through I realized that I felt different. I finally got to that other quality of the song -- the hopefulness and the optimism. I relaxed with it because that is really my nature -- hopeful and optimistic. It has been a weird, ridiculous, bad time in dating world lately, but that is only one part of life. And eventually, I am sure, it will come around to the rest of my life, which is pretty good right now.
Meanwhile, why not sing about it ---
