There are a lot of things I have discovered about myself lately, but perhaps the most fun thing is that I like sex. Kind of a lot. I have had an amazing time playing with that knowledge and trying out all the wacky things people do in their 20s -- with the benefit of being in my 40s and generally smarter about taking care of myself.
I've been getting exhausted with play partnering lately, though, and am gradually settling in to looking for something more settled -- with lots of communication and openness about sex, though. I'm not willing to compromise on that. Gradually, my friends-with-benefits are fading away, either through active or passive disengagement. I'm getting lots more sleep, and I have more energy to focus on "serious" dating prospects.
But it has been a while since sex. I have gone for (much) longer than this before, but that was when I still had this sense of shame and taboo around the whole thing. Now that I'm comfortable with it, being without it is much less comfortable.
Another thing I have discovered about myself, though, is that I can be patient about getting what I truly want. So we wait, watch the snowstorm, write filthy messages in the drifts and watch them get covered up again as the snow continues to fall.
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